不再是同一個人.
不再是我愛的人.
感情已變質.
心碎了無痕.

不再是同一個人.
不再是妳愛的人.
穩定是罪行.
不變惹妳恨.

曾天真相信這是最後的旅程.
原來一切只是虛構的情境.
我和妳住在不同的惑星.
偶遇生了不該的愛情.

跨過國境之南
再越太陽之西
在雲和山的彼端
我們將會再遇於彩虹橋

再次讓你趟在我的掌心
再次看著你信任的眼神

你已在我回憶中至深
我願再做你一生的主人

My Dearest Chun Chun.
Rest in Peace.
2007/09/04 - 2008/10/24

My supported candidate has lost in the election, but I have no regret since I had gave him a vote.

I'm glad that my mate had vote for her desired candidate of her geographical election constituency either.

Although our political views are different, this is a very important step that she move forward in caring our society, our future.

This is why our freedom is valuable, this is why we have to treasure our rights in being able to vote for someone represent us.

If you didn't want to vote because of there are no desired candidate,

give a blank vote to represent your voice rather than just sitting at home and say something like "just myself can't change the society", even a blank vote means.

Say NO to all bad candidates you think or choose one thats not the worst to prevent the true worst one rule the game,

you have two choices. Both of them are much better than doing nothing!

Rights & Obligation are linked, you learned it form your primary school teachers.

If you love to remain silence, Mainland China maybe more suitable for you.

At there no one need your voice, go keep up your money grinding only life.

Remember that selfish ignorant leader comes form selfish ignorant citizens.

To whom didn't vote: Don't ask for rights if you didn't pay for the obligation. It's you who gave-up the choice of our future.

祝福所有四川災民。希望您們早日脫離險境。

雖然五六百元不算甚麼，但也希望一點心意可以幫得上忙。

中國人，要團結。 溫總，辛苦了。

明報: 大地無情人有情 我們都是汶川人

寧可在下流社會中當個小小的青蛙王子，也不屈於硬掙進上流社會之門當個下流的人。

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母校四十五週年開放日，我在兩個小時內竟先後遇到了這十年間對我曾經很重要的兩位舊愛。

有人內心性格七、八年都沒有變，
依然外表現實，但內在仍然有點天真略帶好勝。
圓了一個近十年的夢，反而感到欣慰。

有人只是一、兩年之隔但已士別三日，
卻不是令我另眼相看，而是側目而視，變得墮落與沈淪。
雖則有點可悲可嘆與自責，但卻又自感慶幸。

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大亨 - 徐小鳳  曲︰顧嘉輝  詞︰黃霑  編︰蔡德才

他也在找　我也在找
找到名利幾多
他拼命追　我拼命追
追到又如何

追到什麼　找到什麼
收到又幾多
得了什麼　失了什麼
可有認真算過

＊何必呢　何必呢
可知一切他朝都會身外過
得的多　還失的多
升得高的終於都會低墮

＃何必呢　何必呢
拋開一切束縛身心韁鎖
且向心內　仔細追尋
找那安然既我

重唱　＊,＃

且向心內　仔細追尋
找那安然既我 (x3)

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前天在家偶然聽到中央公園有個傷健一家的活動中播起了這首我很久沒有聽過，然而卻又很有意思的歌：

生命有價 '94兒歌創作大賽作品 曲:張兆鴻 詞:歐湛江 唱:王馨平
盡快將 憂愁眼睛
憂愁面孔 憂愁內心
拋棄吧
找回你的微笑嘴巴
一同和唱可以嗎
啦……
一同拍掌 全力讚賞
生存是有價

從哇哇一聲睜開眼睛看地球
從懂得緊握媽媽暖的手
到咿咿呀呀一聲兩聲仍唔夠
從爬爬行行然後曉得走

從揹起書包吸取知識不用愁
從你有佢有開始手牽手
到他朝開心傷心痛心齊嘗透
人活著實在奇妙怎猜透

願你知生命實在亦是有些意外
不用徬徨迷途只須緊記
它有無窮色彩
它有無盡的愛
願憑著自信跨過障礙賽

現在的小朋友們是否少了這類兒歌聽？

Never imagined before, I got only 6 holidays in past 2 months.
I hate to work in a place which "schedule" never exist.
I hate to play games in office for whole day due to nothing to do,
I hate to work overnights due to too much to do.
Where is the project planning?
This is a waste on my ability and time to wait wait wait everyday.
Don't let me just write Flash games, it is boring and clumsy.
I learn almost nothing related to my intended goal.
Application letters already sent.
Lets see when could I escape from this nightmare arena, which I have to face my boss 1 on 1 everyday.

  neck extremly painful, 5 hours sleep,
ditched my parents and gf half way on the street at afternoon,
go back to office and work overnight, still not enough?
ok, everything is my fault.
Lets finish this nicely once and for all, then I am done.

All I need is respect. This company is lacking of it, just like how lack it pays me for the load I gave.
I could have low pay for high workload, but I cannot lose my dignity for shit.

Whenever I see my friend's diary / blog about how they enjoy their life, spending money, purchasing stocks and investments,
I ask myself "Do I jealous?", somehow I am wondering whether I had chosen the right path for me.
Although it is already better for my life after I have graduated from university, I'm still worry about my future.

How far away from me to the road of success? Will I able to reach my goal? What if I can't being as an architect at last?
These questions filled my mind when I get sleep or mediating in front of my monitor.
Whats the meaning of SUCCESS for me? I can tell it is definitely not being RICH.
In fact I hate HS Index raises so fast that everyone pouring money to gamble stocks.

Everyday the newspaper looks like laughing at me,
for stupid hard working at our office for whole month in order to exchange what a
stock gambler could get in a few hours without any knowledge of finance, just by luck.
However, I scorned to earn money by this. I despise people who earn money by this way.

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Learn from mistakes.
I was surprising that I dared to stand and say NO to my boss after my little pet Scare passed away.
I have no regret to kick his ass even I got blamed in public for almost an hour.
Anyway, I found some wisdom from him.

People never seen the sweat, blood and tears behind the ladder you climb for years to reach your destination.
It is ME who asked for real hard challenges just because I said I want to be trained as a superior one.
I should not complain for how hard, tried or unwilling to do a task which assigned to me.
I grow up again.

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Acknowledged that I will leave Hong Kong a month or two to Las Vegas for a training trip at the 1st / 2nd quarter.
I was hesitating at first, but I accepted finally. Thanks Jacky for your stunning advice. Yes, I'm almost 30. I should go.
What I have to think is that any possible way to take my hamster with me to LV?
If you know anything about this please drop me a line. I will be very gladded.

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I had participated the Faculty of Engineering Graduation Ceremony last week.
My mother and grandmother was there to see my very first time of wearing a university student graduation gown and getting a dummy certificate from our dean of faculty under hundreds pair of eyes from other parents, professors and fellow classmates.
My cousin Fire has also came to take photos with me, which is happy and funny.

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After nine months, I returned to Azeroth - the World of Warcraft, with a Blood Elf Warlock.
Once again, for the Horde!!

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So many things want to tell, so less time to write them down.
Let me load them all like sXXt! LOL

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I found myself worked with many "3": 3DYN, G3A, WE3

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Despite chatting with friends on MSN, I rarely type Chinese nowadays.
On Skype, on MSN, I cannot escape from my boss's summon for reporting project progress even in late night.
That means I have to type English for almost 24 hours a day. So poor.

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High pressure coming on my head recently due to heavy work load.
For example, I have worked more than 64 hours last week.
Tried to sleep three hours only then wake up at 5 am to catch the Jet Ship on 7am to Macau,
with the only piece of cake and a little box of soft-drink which I bought at the pier's seven-eleven,
I worked 10 hours inside a cold lab of slot machine without drink, eat or piss.
I had worked 18 hours in total on that day, returned to Hong Kong at 1am.
3 days later, I have also tried working until 4 am in the office for some emergency stuff.
When issues are not much related to my current task, I somehow have to stand-by at late night to support my colleagues.

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Time spent on waiting for replies is much more tired than just work.

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Happy hamsters family!
I have 5 hamsters now!
They are so cute and lovely!

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Just bought World in Conflict, a really nice RTS game.

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I feel happy in this year's mid-autumn festival,
this is because:
1. I have brought all my hamsters to my grandmother's home and had a warm dinner with almost all of my family relatives.
2. I went to a public celebration which is very spectacular with lanterns, Chinese styles animals and ancient tale's characters that made by paper and bamboos. I took a few photos and walk along the path beside Tolo harbor with my dear.

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3 months has passed, promise still haven't fulfill, someone is just a coward liar.

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I love Grita.

back to 14/9:
A day just like every other day, with a pair of tired hands due to ground breaking for my pet's funeral. I had my lunch with Marco, he buy me a meal for celebrating his success on job hunting and my birthday.

At almost 4 o'clock, Anna with boss opened the door and bring me a birthday cake! WOW! What a surprise with all engineers around the world joined into a chat room and say happy birthday to me! Thanks everyone for that, I was very happy at that moment.

Another surprise is Ryan, one of our engineer at Las Vegas, who work closely with me on our Flash based products,
share the same birthday with me! The world is really so small.

The third surprise is that, I got an urgent task from boss and this must be finished off by the end of the week.
As Ryan is out of office for a few days enjoying his birthday, I take the task and work-overtime until 1am of 15th September. Really amazing that I had slept for only 5 hours and worked for 16 hours!

A nice celebration, with the only thing I dislike: Ferry.age++;

Maybe this is my most upset and silence birthday ever.

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My hamster - muichu, has died at around 3:30 am on 11th September, 2007.

She has buried at location latitude: 22.452849 longitude:114.186423 at 9:00 pm on 12th September, 2007.

Beside a tree next to the bicycle route, covered with small wood strips and her most favorite food.

Thanks for every joy she bought to us and bless her could have a better master in her next life.

Farewell, my dear pet.

兩個月了。 我個承諾我做到了。

多數網上的九型人格分析都只會說你是哪兩類人。
這個好像比較詳細。

第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型  15%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型  15%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型  13%
第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型  13%
第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使  12%
第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者  11%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型  8%
第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者  7%
第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型  6%

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No pay, no victory.
No pain, no victory.
No sacrifice, no victory.
No tears, no victory.
No hardworking, no victory.
No patient, no victory.
No faith, no victory.
No thought, no victory.
No devotion, no victory.
No enthusiasm, no victory.

No lost, no victory.


No hope, no victory.

終於有一晚，有一個多小時讓我去說這一個月間想說的事。
時間有限，不知道有沒有足夠的時間讓我把一切都寫完？

近來時間好像很不夠，工作忙碌回家之後，
竟然在沒有打機玩樂下也能夠忙這忙那到凌晨三四時才睡，
有時侯半夜十二時也有公司的工作要做．．．
工作上這個月主要都要去幫公司的產品想想新奇好玩的玩意以及嘗試實作。
雖然正職工作上很忙碌，但我從沒有放棄過副業與外快，
freelance project 有幾個找過我，但這些實在接不了。
反正加薪後現在財政應該比較鬆動一點，還是要留一點時間給身邊的人。
現在正洽談著一份補習，是替一個剛入城大的女生補有關資訊工程的東西。

自從大學畢業開始上班後，人生充實得很，
心靈變得沒有那麼寂寞，跟母親大人多了時間吃飯，
而且家中還增添了新成員呢，是兩隻倉鼠。牠們很可愛呀~

這個月好像沒多大外出走動，比較高興的是去了看高達展。
我拍照足足把 2GB SD card 都塞滿了。
其他時間都只是因為有東西要出去買所以才到旺角逛了數次。

由於我的那部 Sony Ericsson M600i 已經使用了一年，
而它又好像有點兒不聽使喚．．．(例如機側的scroll button 有時會上下倒轉．．．)
便把心一橫買了 O2 XDA Zinc。
因為現在公司實在需要我無時無刻都可以被找到，
這部專為 communication oriented 設計的 pocket pc phone 便適合我了。
不單止三頻、3G、還有 wi-fi 、 bluetooth等，連可推出來有整部機大小的 keyboard。
mobile messaging 實在很棒！
還記得昨年這個時候我用 Motorola E680i + $1710 換了 M600i，
現在我竟然能以 $1200 賣了！！實在很抵呀！

數天前馬田跟我說要邀請我去中學母校四十五周年校慶聚餐，
本來興致不大，但想起可能見到兩位老師，或許會應承吧。
兩個五年，兩位舊愛，同是中學師妹，
同是對我一生影響很大，以及我很愛的人。

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我是否該天真的再一次相信別人跟我說的一生一世？
不是誰的問題，而是兩個人之間的關係其實是脆弱得很。
只因為我知道人生如戲，唯有盡量抽身，
叫自己別用情太深，別太認真。
凡事有心理準備，到再一次被拋棄時也可以平常心面對。
然後豁然向天嘿嘿，一笑置之。

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被重創後的這一年半間我總共跟七個女孩發展過。
緣 - 不是有與沒有，而是多與少。
這使得我現在即使還有機會都很被動與消極。
七個人有六個已接近或已經人間蒸發了，
是否比看鬼片還要恐怖？

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一個十年何止幾番新？ 三十七歲時的我會否還記得這一切一切？