Never imagined before, I got only 6 holidays in past 2 months.
I hate to work in a place which "schedule" never exist.
I hate to play games in office for whole day due to nothing to do,
I hate to work overnights due to too much to do.
Where is the project planning?
This is a waste on my ability and time to wait wait wait everyday.
Don't let me just write Flash games, it is boring and clumsy.
I learn almost nothing related to my intended goal.
Application letters already sent.
Lets see when could I escape from this nightmare arena, which I have to face my boss 1 on 1 everyday.

Whenever I see my friend's diary / blog about how they enjoy their life, spending money, purchasing stocks and investments,
I ask myself "Do I jealous?", somehow I am wondering whether I had chosen the right path for me.
Although it is already better for my life after I have graduated from university, I'm still worry about my future.

How far away from me to the road of success? Will I able to reach my goal? What if I can't being as an architect at last?
These questions filled my mind when I get sleep or mediating in front of my monitor.
Whats the meaning of SUCCESS for me? I can tell it is definitely not being RICH.
In fact I hate HS Index raises so fast that everyone pouring money to gamble stocks.

Everyday the newspaper looks like laughing at me,
for stupid hard working at our office for whole month in order to exchange what a
stock gambler could get in a few hours without any knowledge of finance, just by luck.
However, I scorned to earn money by this. I despise people who earn money by this way.

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Learn from mistakes.
I was surprising that I dared to stand and say NO to my boss after my little pet Scare passed away.
I have no regret to kick his ass even I got blamed in public for almost an hour.
Anyway, I found some wisdom from him.

People never seen the sweat, blood and tears behind the ladder you climb for years to reach your destination.
It is ME who asked for real hard challenges just because I said I want to be trained as a superior one.
I should not complain for how hard, tried or unwilling to do a task which assigned to me.
I grow up again.

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Acknowledged that I will leave Hong Kong a month or two to Las Vegas for a training trip at the 1st / 2nd quarter.
I was hesitating at first, but I accepted finally. Thanks Jacky for your stunning advice. Yes, I'm almost 30. I should go.
What I have to think is that any possible way to take my hamster with me to LV?
If you know anything about this please drop me a line. I will be very gladded.

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I had participated the Faculty of Engineering Graduation Ceremony last week.
My mother and grandmother was there to see my very first time of wearing a university student graduation gown and getting a dummy certificate from our dean of faculty under hundreds pair of eyes from other parents, professors and fellow classmates.
My cousin Fire has also came to take photos with me, which is happy and funny.

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After nine months, I returned to Azeroth - the World of Warcraft, with a Blood Elf Warlock.
Once again, for the Horde!!

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So many things want to tell, so less time to write them down.
Let me load them all like sXXt! LOL

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I found myself worked with many "3": 3DYN, G3A, WE3

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Despite chatting with friends on MSN, I rarely type Chinese nowadays.
On Skype, on MSN, I cannot escape from my boss's summon for reporting project progress even in late night.
That means I have to type English for almost 24 hours a day. So poor.

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High pressure coming on my head recently due to heavy work load.
For example, I have worked more than 64 hours last week.
Tried to sleep three hours only then wake up at 5 am to catch the Jet Ship on 7am to Macau,
with the only piece of cake and a little box of soft-drink which I bought at the pier's seven-eleven,
I worked 10 hours inside a cold lab of slot machine without drink, eat or piss.
I had worked 18 hours in total on that day, returned to Hong Kong at 1am.
3 days later, I have also tried working until 4 am in the office for some emergency stuff.
When issues are not much related to my current task, I somehow have to stand-by at late night to support my colleagues.

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Time spent on waiting for replies is much more tired than just work.

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Happy hamsters family!
I have 5 hamsters now!
They are so cute and lovely!

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Just bought World in Conflict, a really nice RTS game.

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I feel happy in this year's mid-autumn festival,
this is because:
1. I have brought all my hamsters to my grandmother's home and had a warm dinner with almost all of my family relatives.
2. I went to a public celebration which is very spectacular with lanterns, Chinese styles animals and ancient tale's characters that made by paper and bamboos. I took a few photos and walk along the path beside Tolo harbor with my dear.

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3 months has passed, promise still haven't fulfill, someone is just a coward liar.

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I love Grita.

back to 14/9:
A day just like every other day, with a pair of tired hands due to ground breaking for my pet's funeral. I had my lunch with Marco, he buy me a meal for celebrating his success on job hunting and my birthday.

At almost 4 o'clock, Anna with boss opened the door and bring me a birthday cake! WOW! What a surprise with all engineers around the world joined into a chat room and say happy birthday to me! Thanks everyone for that, I was very happy at that moment.

Another surprise is Ryan, one of our engineer at Las Vegas, who work closely with me on our Flash based products,
share the same birthday with me! The world is really so small.

The third surprise is that, I got an urgent task from boss and this must be finished off by the end of the week.
As Ryan is out of office for a few days enjoying his birthday, I take the task and work-overtime until 1am of 15th September. Really amazing that I had slept for only 5 hours and worked for 16 hours!

A nice celebration, with the only thing I dislike: Ferry.age++;

終於有一晚，有一個多小時讓我去說這一個月間想說的事。
時間有限，不知道有沒有足夠的時間讓我把一切都寫完？

近來時間好像很不夠，工作忙碌回家之後，
竟然在沒有打機玩樂下也能夠忙這忙那到凌晨三四時才睡，
有時侯半夜十二時也有公司的工作要做．．．
工作上這個月主要都要去幫公司的產品想想新奇好玩的玩意以及嘗試實作。
雖然正職工作上很忙碌，但我從沒有放棄過副業與外快，
freelance project 有幾個找過我，但這些實在接不了。
反正加薪後現在財政應該比較鬆動一點，還是要留一點時間給身邊的人。
現在正洽談著一份補習，是替一個剛入城大的女生補有關資訊工程的東西。

自從大學畢業開始上班後，人生充實得很，
心靈變得沒有那麼寂寞，跟母親大人多了時間吃飯，
而且家中還增添了新成員呢，是兩隻倉鼠。牠們很可愛呀~

這個月好像沒多大外出走動，比較高興的是去了看高達展。
我拍照足足把 2GB SD card 都塞滿了。
其他時間都只是因為有東西要出去買所以才到旺角逛了數次。

由於我的那部 Sony Ericsson M600i 已經使用了一年，
而它又好像有點兒不聽使喚．．．(例如機側的scroll button 有時會上下倒轉．．．)
便把心一橫買了 O2 XDA Zinc。
因為現在公司實在需要我無時無刻都可以被找到，
這部專為 communication oriented 設計的 pocket pc phone 便適合我了。
不單止三頻、3G、還有 wi-fi 、 bluetooth等，連可推出來有整部機大小的 keyboard。
mobile messaging 實在很棒！
還記得昨年這個時候我用 Motorola E680i + $1710 換了 M600i，
現在我竟然能以 $1200 賣了！！實在很抵呀！

數天前馬田跟我說要邀請我去中學母校四十五周年校慶聚餐，
本來興致不大，但想起可能見到兩位老師，或許會應承吧。
兩個五年，兩位舊愛，同是中學師妹，
同是對我一生影響很大，以及我很愛的人。

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我是否該天真的再一次相信別人跟我說的一生一世？
不是誰的問題，而是兩個人之間的關係其實是脆弱得很。
只因為我知道人生如戲，唯有盡量抽身，
叫自己別用情太深，別太認真。
凡事有心理準備，到再一次被拋棄時也可以平常心面對。
然後豁然向天嘿嘿，一笑置之。

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被重創後的這一年半間我總共跟七個女孩發展過。
緣 - 不是有與沒有，而是多與少。
這使得我現在即使還有機會都很被動與消極。
七個人有六個已接近或已經人間蒸發了，
是否比看鬼片還要恐怖？

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一個十年何止幾番新？ 三十七歲時的我會否還記得這一切一切？

星期六下午去了馬田家替他修理手提電腦，
之後便去了打機。及後找了 kawaii 、楓一同吃飯。
四個相識十多年的朋友在大排檔吃飯的感覺是很好的。
也去看了《五星級大鼠》，本來沒甚麼期望但整套動畫都充滿歡樂。
配音員雖是名星但表現滿意有驚喜。離開戲院一刻很快樂。

星期日去了逛沙田宜家傢俬，
然後到了將軍澳東港城看爬蟲展。
珍貴稀有國家一級保護物種令人拍案叫絕。
溫馴的、兇殘的、可愛的蛇、蜥、蛙、龜等等都令人大開眼界。
看得很開心呀，唯一美中不足便是不能在埸內拍照．．．
同行三人中，有一個美人兒，
聽說她有點不開心所以想叫出來行下散心。
我們一起看爬蟲展，去易牙炒手吃晚飯，再到滿記甜品吃糖水。
因為有爆笑二人組的關係，三個人由頭傻笑到落尾。

這兩天是充實快樂而且很累的周未！

近來都沒有時間去寫，
我再不記下來定必會忘記這個漫長得黎又短暫的七月發生過甚麼事。

2007/08/03
放工後一個人由九龍塘行去高登逛逛，
感覺良好，最後買了一個用來安裝於電腦機箱上的讀卡器。
售 75 元算是合理，而且跟機箱顏色格調一致。
那個電話，那個諾言，已一個月了。

2007/07/29
去了看《變形金剛》。好看得沒話說。
同日發生第一次超級小寶寶大戰事件。

2007/07/22
去了書展。
心血來潮想在 starcraft 2 出前由頭再看一次，
所以買了 starcraft 的小說。
也買了一本有關創業及法律的書。
連帶其他送的書，戰利品一共六本。

2007/07/21
如冇記錯，該晚跟佐治聚舊。
於慈雲山中心越南村晚饍。
飯後心血來潮，兩個男人去了嘉禾荷理活看《Harry Plotter - Order of The Phoenix》。
而且是佐治請的，嘿嘿。

2007/07/16:

這天早上如常的上班，但中午收到一個朋友的電話，

相約黃昏時候茶聚，於是我便沒有吃午飯來換取早一個小時離開公司。

一直到了五時，中間吃了點牛肉乾及薯蓉充飢，

我們在又一城 food court 食 tea．．．

一邊吃一邊談，本來六時多打算各自回家，

但朋友說突然想帶我到一個地方，於是便跟了他去．．．

一直的走走走．．．慢慢感覺空氣變得清新，也帶了點咸味。

忽然驚覺一座高塔屹立目前，原來我到了大埔海濱公園。

從前就只有從大圍踏單車偶爾經過這裡，

想不到今天我在高塔上面對黃昏晚霞，柔柔海風迎面而至。

那時侯公園遊人不多，寧靜祥和，看著一望無際的海景，

心情頓時放鬆，煩惱也好像一掃而空。

我們沿著海濱長廊來回漫步，看著雲彩由紫紅到漆黑。

一路上在聽他訴說心事，對這個朋友的了解又加深了一點。

回到黃大仙的時候已是九時多，我走進了美心快餐，

一邊享受我的晚餐，一邊觀看《歲月風雲》第一集。

又是一個難忘的夜晚。

2007/07/15:

十一時多起床，很熱於是便洗了個澡。

一切準備好便出發到大埔，與一位朋友見面。

相遇後，我拿著傘阻擋太陽光，穿過酷熱的大街小巷，

到了一間快餐式的上海菜館進食我們的午饍。

飽肚後，我們乘坐九廣鐵路到了尖東的香港科學館，

排隊購票去看飛龍在天展覽。

距離入場時間還有一小時，我們回到理大吃了個下午茶。

終於都到了入埸看恐龍的時刻。

埸內有很多珍貴化石及恐龍骨標本，實在大開眼界。

逛畢恐龍展後便順道在科學館裡玩玩各好玩的科學展品，

大家都玩得很累，笑得很開心呀~

離開科學館時已八時多，於是便乘火車回大埔晚饍。

我們在一間叫八號餐廳的食肆一邊吃一邊談，又是一輪大笑。

回到家中已近晚上十二時，很累但同時很高興。

因為很久也沒有這樣開懷大笑足整整一天。

2007/07/14:
星期六，老闆跟 Art Director、CTO 等人回國內參觀一所設計學校，
用意是打算從那裡挑選一些有潛質的學生到公司當 graphic designer。
於是公司便沒有人，剛巧安娜早上傳短訊來說她生病了要請假，
最後只餘下我一個人上班．．．
工作進度良好，我決定放自己半日假。
但放假半日有甚麼好做？
一個人，找不到伴，沒有節目。
一直都想看虎膽龍威4.0，看見荷里活嘉禾有位，
沒有多想便從九龍塘乘地鐵到鑽石山買票。
距離開埸還有一小時，便在隔壁的遊戲機中心玩 Gundam Seed Destiny 呀。
プロヴィデンスガンダム＋ゲイツ[指揮官用] 十連勝．．．剛好開場。
整場戲都很緊張刺激呀，又有不少幽默的地方，我覺得都很好看呢。
這是我一生人第二次一個人看戲．．．
看完戲乘小巴回家，剛好五點又有點餓，便到了大快活吃了個下午茶，
很久也沒吃過我很喜歡吃的煉奶西多士加燒雞翼了！
晚上在家休息，MSN、傾電話、玩玩遊戲便一天。

(CONT') 星期日更精采！

做教徒係咪容易過食生菜？
係咪覺得係就係？
仲有教徒除左祈禱外，道德上係咪完全冇任何既規範？
點解咁多人會話自己係教徒？

點解．．．　
一個全家都係教徒既人竟然係勁鍾意講大話？

點解．．．　
另一個話自己係虔誠既教徒會走去做第三者拆散別人家庭？

完全不合情理，毫無邏輯可言。
冒充警員要抓去坐牢，冒充教徒者上天又會如何對待？

近日雖然識了不少女生，但對我來說都只是假桃花。

始終我都是個極難理解同相處的人。

天天在公司殺得天昏地暗，回到家感覺好像腦袋給轟掉了似的。

還有甚麼時間與心情跟一些素未謀面的女生們發展？

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銀彈與心青就如魚與熊掌，難以兩者兼得。

即使萬事俱備，仍欠 CHANCES AND GUTS。

近日覺得呢幾首好聽俾錢買左：

童夢 - 光良 + 衛蘭
自愛 - 孫耀威
逼得太緊 - 吳雨霏
花落誰家 - 李克勤

p.s. sammi 我其實唔明佢係咪唱得？
首新歌我係公司聽左不下三十次都聽唔到佢唱乜，
唔search都唔知原來個名叫《愛情萬歲》，
但咬字竟然同 fiona 唱《下次下次》一樣咁唔準．．．
人地光良唱廣東話都仲咬字清過兩位香港歌手，
真係．．．　＝＿＝

近日累得沒有心情寫，暫停數天。

能夠六時半回到家中，實在是一份奢侈的享受。

就好像多活了一天一樣！

老細一不在公司，我一定要準時收工！ XDDD

終於都出了考試成績。

EIE406 不用 retake 實在太好了 (成個 sem 冇上堂都有個 C， K.T. Lo 真係好好人。 xD)

兩科 Design 竟然一個 B 一個 B+ 呀!!! (多謝阿Chong 同阿 Nic 鬆手 !!! ^^:)

唯一有d 失望既係 FYP 同 EIE424 A 唔到 =_= ，得 B+。

最後 GPA 都係唔過 3............. Orz

但... 我一個人做兩個幾 FYP 都仲可以幫人拿 A 之餘，自己有 B+，都算盡了力吧。

老實說我 FYP 真的很俾心機做，拿不到 A 實在有點無奈。

各位同學，四年辛苦日子，終於都捱完喇！

以後都唔駛再理個爛鬼 EIE Department，恭喜晒！

工作煩重不要緊，至少我跟老闆說需要一個星期完成的工作只用了兩天便完成，
但不用朝九晚九的話，我回到家中又有甚麼用？

同學、同事多年來遇過不少，但奈何十居其九大都只是人生過客。

"假的擁抱並不能夠填補你心靈上的空虛，不能安撫你打從深淵裡的寂寞。"

一針見血。

"我的寂寞大得深淵都能堆滿，奈何我連假的擁抱也得不到。"

我是個很簡單的人，
像今天去看看戲、排隊吃烏冬、弄弄電腦逛逛街、到公園踏踏單車便已很開心。
要是能加上擁抱與牽手的話，也許我能滿足到落淚。

明天又要上班了，有人會等待我下班嗎？